I TWEAKED MY LOWER BACK.
DROVE 3 HOURS WITH THE GIRLS IN THE CAR. FORGOT MULTIPLE ITEMS FOR THE TRIP. CHILDCARE PLANS CHANGED. I BROKE DOWN ON THE HIGHWAY DUE TO A FAULTY BRAND NEW TIRE. I WAS LATE. I WAS DONE BEFORE THE WEEKEND OF MINISTRY EVEN BEGAN.
By God’s grace I arrived at the women’s retreat in one piece. But, I did not come in full strength. I felt unprepared and mentally exhausted. Not to mention, extremely angry and frustrated with my circumstances. I was ready to give up.
The verse, Not by might, not by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord. (Zec. 4:6), filled my mind as I walked through the cabin doors.
I asked the women on Friday night, “What obstacles stood in the way of you being able to come to retreat?” Every woman I spoke with
told me of at least one major difficulty she had encountered on her way to or as she signed up for the retreat. Through the Lord’s strength, all of us sister’s overcame the enemies obstacles. Through His Spirit, women were drawn to Jesus. I give Him FULL credit and glory for our sweet time of salvation, healing, growth, and renewal.
God’s presence changes me. And being with my sister
‘s changes me. Everytime. Over the weekend, I had my: perspective altered. Burdens and worries lifted. Joy and hope restored. Mind renewed. Purpose confirmed. I had the opportunity to pray, listen, worship, cry, and laugh with new and old friends.
But I didn’t take care of one key component: myself . In my excitement to serve and fear
to miss opportunities to show Christ’s love, I burned out. I broke down in tears before leading worship Saturday night due to extreme exhaustion.
James Bryan Smith in, “The Good and Beautiful Community” teaches, “We need to have balance when it comes to the issue of serving others and taking care of ourselves. I have many Christian friends who are so focused on serving others that they neglect their own needs, and sometimes the needs of their families. We need to be aware of the condition of our own souls and bodies, and to take care of that first, without feeling any guilt about it.”
And so I learned something about myself.
It is in everyone’s best interest if I take time out to replenish, to fill my cup. And I can do this without stress or guilt because I am not the Savior, Jesus is. And I take my orders of who, when, and where to show His love.
Even Jesus took time away from His mission to
make sure His needs were taken care of.
Jillian’s 5 ingredient recipe for her own personal sanity and wholeness:
- Sleep Atleast one 4 hour block of sleep each night. (With a newborn)
- Prayer and the Word Continual prayer and a daily alone time in the Word
- Time with family Weekly quality time with my husband, close friends, and girls.
- Exercise Go for a run a couple times a week. I have more energy, and less stress.
- Use of spiritual gifts Daily, weekly, monthly obedience to the Spirit’s voice in serving others.
After He (Jesus) had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Mt 14:23
What is your 5 ingredient recipe for sanity and wholeness?
What specifically will you do this week in order to be at balance with God, yourself and others?
© 2012 Standing on Peace