Jun 152016
 

If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!  Luke 11:13

Love never loses faith; 1 Corinthians 13:7a

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  Luke 11:9

So I slowly.  Ever so slowly people-  Put on my favorite stretchy pants, shirt and running shoes this morning, and practically fell out the door.  My pace could hardly be called “running” (or even jogging to be fare) due to my extreme grogginess.  (Alright.  It also may have been due to the fact my “haven’t disciplined myself to work out body” was telling me “no” when I tried to “go”.)

As I ran, the dream I had been having when the brutal wake up happened was recalled to my memory.  It’s ironic because I cannot remember the last time I remembered a dream.  And it was even more rare because it seemed to be a spiritual dream, involving a reocurring scripture verse and sister in Christ.

I felt a Spirit nudge to text this individual about this scripture and dream.  (God has to make things clear to me and I don’t believe in coincidences-I believe in God ordained/Spirit prompted occurrences.)  How you ask?  Well, let me share.  First, I remembered the dream and it involved scripture (miracle of rememberings mixed with Truth).  And next, the first reminder on my phone from Facebook said this individual’s name with the phrase, “Let her know” attached to it.  Our God works through mysterious ways my friends.  And yes, (in spite of all the Facebook drama) even through Facebook!

The texting to my friend was my first order of business on my run (gotta love the voice command feature, however people may have given me the “you are weird” look more than once).  And then I got to thank my God for His goodness to me.  I thanked God specifically for “no rain on the run” (since the reality of the downpoor was imminent due to the wet all around me/clouds all above me and I hate running in the rain-and even more running in the rain with my dog)  I also prayed for friends and family who were on my heart.

But then I asked my Father to “speak for your child is listening” (in an effort to listen to God rather than continue my laundry list of needs and agenda) and a strange feeling came over me.  Warning-I am heading into the transparent zone so beware the upcoming statement people!  If I am being truly honest with myself, I was dealing with som yucky.  Heart issue stuff.   And yes lets call it out.  Jealousy.

I was wishing that dream I had for my friend had been for me.  I was wanting my Father God to have a Word for me.  I was needing some tangible love from Him.  Just.  For.  Me-What.  About.  Me.  (And as I write this I recognize fully I have written the word “Me” fulfilling the writing quota for the year.  Ouch.)  But this was the real of where my heart sat.

I wish my response to God’s love for another would have been different.  Selfless maybe.  Joyful and glad.  Other’s focused.  And many times I genuinely do “rejoice with those who rejoice”.  But not this time.  My faith in His constant love for me appeared nonexistent in this moment.

Having finished my run on a down note I walked in my front door, headed straight to the back door to let the dog out, and IMMEDIATELY it started to rain.  And IMMEDIATELY my heart fluttered a little as I received this good, love gift from my Father.  You would think being an Oregon girl that rain wouldn’t get to me so much, but God knows I cannot stand the wet, dreary rain run.  (And especially when the wet dog would be a reality as well.)  Now, once again this coincidance situation is back on the table.  Could it be coincidance that the rain started up right after I stepped inside and was needing to recognize some “Father love” to me? Not with the way I roll.

I may not have felt the rain, but I felt the love of the Father rain down on me this morning.  (He’s got enough to go around people!)  His love is deep.  Wide.  Long.  And doesn’t quit.  Not ever.

 May I never doubt this love rain which downpours for me.  For you.  Forever.  And may we testify to the love the Father has for us.  Because when it rains.  It pours.  

Consider what situation you are currently in and need some “Rain love” from the Father.  Would you ask Him to make you aware of His close presence and love for you?

What are you in need of?  Are you in financial need?  Physical strength?  Wisdom?  Peace about the future?  Freedom from fear or addiction?  Help to overcome an obstacle?  Love for a hard to love individual?  Purpose in the now? Whatever your need-God desires to hear, answer and love you through it.  So ask Him.  And allow His love to meet you right now.

 

 

Jillian

Jillian

© 2012 Standing on Peace

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Apr 152013
 

YES.  I WATCHED TWILIGHT.  DON’T JUDGE ME(Even as silly and gruesome as this fantasy world may be, I am a sucker for any love story.)  The crazy part is not the fact that vampires and werewolves are depicted as normal everyday teenagers, but how one of the subplots spoke deeply to my soul.

Jacob, a good werewolf/human, is forced to “imprint” on a newborn human/vampire baby, Renesmee, in order to save her life.  (I have just lost some of you.  For those of you who haven’t seen these movies, try to hear me out to the end.  I promise I have a point beyond the surface vampire story.)

Wikepedia defines Imprinting as: the term used in psychology and ethology to describe any kind of phase-sensitive learning (learning occurring at a particular age or a particular life stage) that is rapid and apparently independent of the consequences of behavior.

How did the imprinting effect Jacob and Renesmee?

  1. Jacob made it clear that he would never leave Renesmee’s side.  Leaving was not an option.  He was bound to her for life.
  2. As Renesmee grew older – no matter how unkind she was to Jacob, no matter how her personality and interests transformed, no matter how many times she messed up, no matter how her actions let him down – he was unwavering in his dedication and love.
  3. Jacob spoke of the hopeful plans he had in store for him and Renesmee’s distant future.
  4. A brief look into the future depicts how years of Jacob’s unconditional, sacrificial love finally won over Renesmee’s heart.

After watching the movie, a spiritual analogy began brewing in my soul.  My Father God was the character Jacob.  I was Renesmee.  My Father God “imprinted”on me from birth.

What God’s “imprinting” means for me:

  • He chose to form a bond with me by creating me in His very image.
  • He would die in unconditional love for me.
  • His nature would not allow Him to turn His back on me or give up on me no matter how many times I rejected and sinned against Him.
  • The one time occurrence of Jesus’ death and resurrection changed my life forever.  As a believer in Jesus, there is no condemnation for my sin.  (Ro 8:1) Only continual forgiveness, grace and love (1 Jo 1:9).
  • He has a purpose for me as we live in close relationship.

Our Father says to us, His daughters:

Not for a moment, will I ever leave you or stop loving you.  I am bound to you.  No matter how much you reject me, sin against me, disobey me, I am constant.   Please receive my love and forgiveness without condemnation or shame.  Please come to me in your weariness, fear, joy, and pain.  I am here.  Waiting.

Ro 8:38-39 “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Is there something you have done or someone has done to you that causes you to doubt God’s love?  Do you feel sometimes as if you are unworthy of His forgiveness?  Will you be reminded and receive the truth of God’s unconditional love for you today?  

Jillian

Jillian

© 2012 Standing on Peace

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