Revelation and thanksgiving. This is what I’m sitting in and pondering today.
There are times when I look at myself in the mirror and realize I’ve been flailing and struggling. To have faith. To trust there is meaning in both the whirling and the stagnant moments in life. To believe God could love little ‘ol me who feels like a mess sometimes.
In this small realization, in this small self-revelation, “Be still and know that I am God“, comes to mind.
Just. Be. Still.
Flailing, struggling, wondering and mustering up belief is me doing the work. But in reality, God does not require my help, knowledge, effort or anything else. He does not owe me justifications or proof in showing me the whole picture. It is in this state of mind
He is God. He made me. And I am His.
Sometimes I just need to stop. Stop and remember what He has done for me. What He has done in me. Thank you God.
I’ve been reading Anne Lamott’s new book, “Help, Thanks, Wow” and I’ve been reading and re-reading the thanks portion of it.
“When we go from rashy and clenched to grateful, we sometimes get to note the experience of grace, in knowing that we could not have gotten ourselves from where we were stuck, in hate or self-righteousness or self-loathing (which are the same thing), to freedom. The movement of grace in our lives toward freedom is the mystery. So we simply say “Thanks.” Something had to open, something had to give, and I don’t have a clue how to get things to do that. But they did, or grace did. Thank you.” – Anne Lamott, “Help, Thanks, Wow”
Many times I find myself too busy and distracted to be still. To remember God’s enormous miracles He has done in my life. To recall His grace overflowing to make the dried up places in my heart beautiful. He has changed me, strengthened me and made me new. Thank you God.
Stopping the whirling has become just as important as the words “thank you” because it invites revelation. Having my heart open to watch, wait for, and then listen to His revelations in my life. To where He wants to stretch and change me, when He wants me to slow down and rest and how He wants me to view Him… and myself. And it has been through these moments of revelation, that transformation has come.
Which again begs a thank you God.
“Revelation is not for the faint at heart… Details are being revealed, and they will take you out of yourself, which is heaven, and you will have a story to tell, which is salvation that again and again saves us… So I say “Thanks,” – Anne Lamott, “Help, Thanks, Wow”
So even when I look into the mirror and have a revelation moment that I’ve been wound up, flailing, trying to do things on my own, I say a big Thank you God. You are God. You made me. And I am Yours.
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