Gotta love those proud parent moments. The one’s in which the only grateful thought keeping you from playing the “Shame Game” for the rest of the year is, “Atleast no one else was around to witness this gold star conversation.” Not to toot my own horn, but I had one of these this week.
It was a “normal” week day (for us this means school, work, meals, shopping, quiet times and the girls’ “squirrel dancing” all took place). I had this genius idea to bring my computer out front to check some “to do’s” off the list, while concurrently watching the girls ride their bikes in the street. At the same point my brain was giving myself an imaginary pat on the back for living out an upstanding example of the multitasking mother, IT happened. My gold star parenting moment.
My youngest daughter rode up to me and stated the question that has not left my mind all week, “Mama, do you love your phone or Jesus more?” Right. There. My. Heart. Sank. And then I proceeded to give a quick answer of, “Well, I love Jesus more honey.” Because that was the right answer. My daughter rode off as I thought back to all the times today and in days past my cell phone had been my priority.
I decided to close my computer after that conversation. Frustrated with technology sapping me of relationships. I thought to myself, “Was my relationship with Jesus my priority each day? What message am I communicating to my family and others through my actions (not words) of the things I value most? How can I live a life of being present with the one’s I am face to face with, not the one’s over cyberspace?”
I love that we serve a God of grace. Who never shames us into submission. Or forces us into intimacy. But instead has an always extended hand. Patiently waiting. For us to grab it.
For me, the picture that goes with my word of the year is one of the extended, open, welcoming, warm hand of Jesus. Our God is THE one to rely on. For strength. Help. Comfort. Direction. Wisdom. Worth. Peace. And Purpose.
So when I am not relying on the Lord, what am I relying on? I have found out. “Myself” is the answer. It is so fitting that all the Webster’s words opposite of reliance are: independence, independency, self-dependence, self-reliance, self-sufficiency, self-support. When I let go of the hand of Jesus, I choose to rely on myself.
But isn’t it a comforting thought that weakness and reliance are not like minded words. The above words coupled with Webster’s definition of “reliance” are one’s of strength-“anchor, pillar”. So we can be sure that relying on/holding onto the hand of Jesus puts us in a category of strength. The bible confirms this as it says in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10:
This “reliance relationship” is what I desire. To be priority. Over all other crazy “distraction balls” hurled at me daily as if I am in a dodgeball game. So I am putting a name to my top 5 distractions
- Cell phone
- Household chores
- Computer-Amazon, email
- A friend’s request to get together
- Work tasks
These distractions consist of everyday, even necessary activities, technologies, projects and people. And each one is not bad in and of themselves. But the problem arises when I rely and act on my own impulses, expectations, and control rather than obedience to the Spirit’s voice. These distractions are my “acheles heals”-areas I know I am prone to prioritize above God’s will for me in the moment. And in these moments when these distractions reign above God’s promptings, or the distractions have so overwhelmed my brain and I am not aware or asking for God’s decision, I am telling God I love “my cell phone” more than Him.
Sweet Jesus, may I today “keep in step with Your Spirit”. May I prioritize loving You and others above my distracting cell phone. May you see me as faithful as I do my best to be obedient to Your voice and commands. May I recognize Your extended hand beckoning me to come. Rest. Find help. Find peace. Find true fulfillment and love. As the distractions of this world fade away in light of Your glorious face.
What distractions keep you in “self reliance” mode rather than reliance on God mode?
What might God be beckoning you to take His hand to do-trusting and relying on Him for strength?
© 2012 Standing on Peace