Mar 252015
 

To walk in humility.  To consider other’s as better than ourselves.  To have a servant attitude like Christ.  To hold our tongue when we could so let others know we are all that and more!  To lay down the pride was this week’s overall challenge.  And boy did I have opportunities this week to practice “Do not boast” love attribute of 1 Corinthians 13.  

Boasting versus Humility Moment #1-New friend-

Of course the sermon passage this week was Luke 14:11 which says, “he who exalts himself will be humbled and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”  Fitting.  Very fitting.  It was obvious the boasting challenge was on.  Throughout the week I found myself operating with a new device/gadget called “The Boasting Checker”.  Meaning, my brain was continually evaluating, “to boast or not to boast, that is the question”. I met someone new at Bible study and as we talked I was cautious.   I asked her a lot of questions.  (This was a safe zone for not boasting about me.)  But then she asked what I did for work-I stated I was the worship pastor at our church.  And then kept going with, “I am also considered lead pastor at our church since we are in a team model and all 5 pastors serve as the senior pastor.”  Immediately I had a check in my spirit.  Went too far with that follow up comment.  Wasn’t necessary and wasn’t living out humility.  I guess my “Boasting Checker” didn’t catch this one.  On the way home from bible study I took a deep breath in. Then out.  Then asked for the Lord to forgive me of my boasting and prideful spirit.  (And I asked Him to fix my “Boasting Checker” gadget to have better luck next time.)

Boasting versus Humility Moment #2-Old friend-

It was Kindergarten round up day and this being the second time we have done this, I was strangely at ease.  Even though we have been unsure about which school to send our girls to in the past, today was not that day.  My husband and I were rock solid with this decision.  Rock solid with peace.  Rock solid in the vast wisdom we could extend to any needing soul.  A got the opportunity to talk with 2 old friends in regards to the half day versus full day/public versus private versus homeschool versus bilingual program options.  I asked God to give me wisdom for each of my friends and show His love to them in this place the challenging place they were in.  And He did.  But somewhere along the boasting continuum, my “rock solid” state I was in turned into a prideful spirit.  My rock solidness looked somewhat like, “I know the best choice, I know it all, I have things really put together” in my mind, heart and am sure overflowed out of my mouth.  (It’s hard to get away from the scripture, “Out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks.” Luke 6:45)  It’s a bummer to recognize even in doing good work for the Kingdom, my pride still comes into play.  And I HAVE to remember that any GOOD done for someone is not because of ME.  Alone, I can do NOTHING.  It is ALWAYS the Spirit at work in me which produces spiritual fruit.  “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”  John 15:5

Boasting versus Humility Moment #3-God talk-

As I ran with the Lord I asked Him what was at the root of my struggle to boast.  Boast.  Boast.  And boast some more.  Am I so lacking.  Deficient.  Insecure that I must compensate by talking myself up?  I believe He responded to my question by directing my thoughts to the NOT portions of the love chapter in 1 Corinthians 13.  He whispered to my soul that all the “DO NOT’s” in the chapter stem from a deeper lie that we carry.  And ironically, it is an “I AM NOT/I HAVE NOT” deep lie, that moves us to participate in the surface issue of boasting, or envy or other DO NOT statements of the love chapter.  We take control of the building ourselves up instead of trusting THE BUILDER (maker of us) to do this work.  For example, when I believe the lie that I am NOT enough-I take control.  I don’t trust God.  And I boast to others that I AM enough.  Or when I believe the lie that I must have more clothes, toys for my kids, newer cars, or a better tv or house to be happy/successful in our culture, saying I do NOT have enough-I take control.  I don’t trust God (to provide/give abundant life).  And I compare what I have to what others have and I get jealous/have envy when they have more (success, material things) than I do.  When we start to have the “I AM/HAVE NOT” untrue statements going through our minds, we must go to God to “renew our mind with I AM” true statements from His Word-we go to the Great I Am for our “I AM” statements.  Here are some I hold to today:

I am a child of the King.  I am created perfectly by the Potter.  I am intended to bring Him glory.  I am valued highly.  I am destined for a great purpose.  I am weak, but in Him I am strong.  I am dead to sin but alive in Jesus.  I am forgiven.  I am free.

Am I now trying to win the approval of men or of God or am I trying to please men?  If I were trying to please men I would not be a servant of Christ.  Galatians 1:10

As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ.  Galatians 6:14a

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or a cheap desire to boast. But be humble towards one another, always considering others as better than yourselves. Phil 2:3-4

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Aug 252014
 

I was in a slump. In a funk.  Not in the mood to go on a run.  (This happens more than I would like to admit.)  Resistance.  Reigned.  It was oozing out of my deepest soul.  

But on a positive note, I was sporting my new “no chaffing” spandex.  The morning was a perfect temperature with a slight breeze.  My husband was good to go to watch the girls while I ran.  So why the intense battle within me to stay home instead of run?  To resist what I knew to be a life giving, spirit filling, and energy feeling activity?

My mind was playing the “discouragement, pitty party, and lies track”.  It went something like this:  “You have already been consistent for two months now on your training schedule and you deserve a break.  You are weary and tired and all this work is probably in vain since you won’t be able to actually complete a marathon anyway-what were you thinking taking on this big of a challenge?  There is no harm in missing one run.”

Even though my mind was overwhelmed by these tempting thoughts to stay home, I thought about this whole running thing being an obedience to God in the first place.  How He confirmed through a peace in my Spirit, His Word, a Marathon runner’s magazine “randomly” given to me, and the support of my husband that this race was this was God’s will for me in this season. And I had a newfound motivation to put those new “no chaffing” spandex to use.  Good use.  They were not meant for sitting on the couch at home (And oh how I have wished that simply putting on workout attire would miraculously help me achieve weight loss/exercise goals.).  They were not meant to sit in a drawer.  They were were meant to run in.

It seemed like a small victory.  But it actually was a big one in overcoming this mental battle.  I went on my run.

I began to think about how easy I succumb to listening to the “Discouragement track” Satan loves to play throughout my day.  Unfortunately he uses this tactic almost every time I am faced with the choice.  To obey Christ. Or not.  I began to analyze the themes of this track.  And came to a revelation.  Even though the words of the discouragement track are contextually different, the message remains the same.  And when this message plays, it is a red flag to me.  And I choose to see God’s reality and truth behind the lies.  Then I am then ready to fight off the enemy’s attacks.  And be an overcomer in Jesus.

Here are the “D” messages of the “Discouragement track” and it is a red flag I need to fight off this attack of the enemy:

  • I Deserve to do what makes me happy and comfortable.
  • I begin to Doubt my ability to carry out God’s plan.
  • I believe a Detour won’t make a difference.

Here are the “D” messages/scriptures of truth to overcome the “Discouragment Track”:

  • Deserve thought-God promises to give me everything I need in this life and I know serving Him requires putting my selfishness aside.  I am truly free and joy filled when I am following Jesus.

“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.”  Phil 4:19

“I am crucified with Christ and I no longer live but Christ lives in me.  The life I live in the body I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.”  Galations 2:20 and

  • Doubt thought-I love the saying, “God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called.”  We can expect we will be stepping out in our inability to follow Jesus because it is in our weak areas God is glorified.

“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”  Phil 1:6

  • Detour thought-It is so easy to rationalize ourselves out of being absolutely obedient to God.  We think partial obedience is good enough.  But partial obedience is disobedience.  And in my life (with my directionally challenged self) a small detour on the road many times leads to getting completely lost.

“Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.” I Corinthians 15:58

Live today with the confidence that you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you!  Run to and for Jesus in whatever temptation, trial, or question you find yourself in today.  And know you are an overcomer in Jesus!

Jillian

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Feb 192013
 

“You need something to claim to fight off the lies and fears.  You need a verse to claim.”

This is what my mom told me as I reached out to her this past week for some advice and comfort amidst change.

Through my past couple of posts, I’ve shared with you how I’ve had to refuse to believe the devil’s lies about myself. How I’ve been struggling with fear, faith and food.  I’ve alluded to some transitions and changes facing our family.

What my mom said sunk deep into my soul.

It’s absolutely necessary to reject the devil’s attack and recognize when fear is taking control.  To say out loud, “he has no power over me in Jesus Christ”.

But I also have to be armed and prepared to replace these lies with truth.

I’ve spent some time identifying my most prominent lies and fears.  I’ve found verses I can practice claiming whenever these thoughts creep into my mind.

I found as I listed everything I am struggling with, many of them are deeply rooted in the belief I’m not good enough.

If you made a similar list, what would your main root be in your life?

What I’m Practicing to Claim:

  • You’re a bad mom because you feel weak, lose your patience and don’t want to be with your kids sometimes.  A verse to claim:  “He tends his flock like a shepherd: he gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.”  Isaiah 40:11
  • You can’t do this healing diet thing.  You’ve always failed in regard to food before.  A verse to claim: “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet he did not sin.” Hebrews 4:15
  • What if we never belong to any church community?  What if we’re the outsiders?  A verse to claim:  “So, my brothers and sisters, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit for God.” Romans 7:4
  • What if the decisions you make for your family and kids end up in complete failure?  A verse to claim: “For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek for me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13
  • What if you’re too weak and insecure to aspire to anything God has called you to or put on your heart?  A verse to claim: “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

What lies and fears would be on your list today?  Are you believing you don’t belong, you’re not good enough or that God doesn’t care about you?  Are you living in a place of fear about your circumstances, status, career, family, body or health?

Spend some time finding your own verses to claim – to replace the lies and fears with truth.  “But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.” 2 Thessalonians 3:3

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