Jun 152016
 

If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!  Luke 11:13

Love never loses faith; 1 Corinthians 13:7a

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  Luke 11:9

So I slowly.  Ever so slowly people-  Put on my favorite stretchy pants, shirt and running shoes this morning, and practically fell out the door.  My pace could hardly be called “running” (or even jogging to be fare) due to my extreme grogginess.  (Alright.  It also may have been due to the fact my “haven’t disciplined myself to work out body” was telling me “no” when I tried to “go”.)

As I ran, the dream I had been having when the brutal wake up happened was recalled to my memory.  It’s ironic because I cannot remember the last time I remembered a dream.  And it was even more rare because it seemed to be a spiritual dream, involving a reocurring scripture verse and sister in Christ.

I felt a Spirit nudge to text this individual about this scripture and dream.  (God has to make things clear to me and I don’t believe in coincidences-I believe in God ordained/Spirit prompted occurrences.)  How you ask?  Well, let me share.  First, I remembered the dream and it involved scripture (miracle of rememberings mixed with Truth).  And next, the first reminder on my phone from Facebook said this individual’s name with the phrase, “Let her know” attached to it.  Our God works through mysterious ways my friends.  And yes, (in spite of all the Facebook drama) even through Facebook!

The texting to my friend was my first order of business on my run (gotta love the voice command feature, however people may have given me the “you are weird” look more than once).  And then I got to thank my God for His goodness to me.  I thanked God specifically for “no rain on the run” (since the reality of the downpoor was imminent due to the wet all around me/clouds all above me and I hate running in the rain-and even more running in the rain with my dog)  I also prayed for friends and family who were on my heart.

But then I asked my Father to “speak for your child is listening” (in an effort to listen to God rather than continue my laundry list of needs and agenda) and a strange feeling came over me.  Warning-I am heading into the transparent zone so beware the upcoming statement people!  If I am being truly honest with myself, I was dealing with som yucky.  Heart issue stuff.   And yes lets call it out.  Jealousy.

I was wishing that dream I had for my friend had been for me.  I was wanting my Father God to have a Word for me.  I was needing some tangible love from Him.  Just.  For.  Me-What.  About.  Me.  (And as I write this I recognize fully I have written the word “Me” fulfilling the writing quota for the year.  Ouch.)  But this was the real of where my heart sat.

I wish my response to God’s love for another would have been different.  Selfless maybe.  Joyful and glad.  Other’s focused.  And many times I genuinely do “rejoice with those who rejoice”.  But not this time.  My faith in His constant love for me appeared nonexistent in this moment.

Having finished my run on a down note I walked in my front door, headed straight to the back door to let the dog out, and IMMEDIATELY it started to rain.  And IMMEDIATELY my heart fluttered a little as I received this good, love gift from my Father.  You would think being an Oregon girl that rain wouldn’t get to me so much, but God knows I cannot stand the wet, dreary rain run.  (And especially when the wet dog would be a reality as well.)  Now, once again this coincidance situation is back on the table.  Could it be coincidance that the rain started up right after I stepped inside and was needing to recognize some “Father love” to me? Not with the way I roll.

I may not have felt the rain, but I felt the love of the Father rain down on me this morning.  (He’s got enough to go around people!)  His love is deep.  Wide.  Long.  And doesn’t quit.  Not ever.

 May I never doubt this love rain which downpours for me.  For you.  Forever.  And may we testify to the love the Father has for us.  Because when it rains.  It pours.  

Consider what situation you are currently in and need some “Rain love” from the Father.  Would you ask Him to make you aware of His close presence and love for you?

What are you in need of?  Are you in financial need?  Physical strength?  Wisdom?  Peace about the future?  Freedom from fear or addiction?  Help to overcome an obstacle?  Love for a hard to love individual?  Purpose in the now? Whatever your need-God desires to hear, answer and love you through it.  So ask Him.  And allow His love to meet you right now.

 

 

Jillian

Jillian

© 2012 Standing on Peace

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Mar 182015
 

A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, but envy makes the bones rot.  Proverbs 14:30

I don’t know about you but I’d rather have healthy bones in my body.  The above scripture portray’s the fairly (or absolutely- if you will) negative impact jealousy and envy can have on our lives.  And my bones felt the pull towards envy decay right off the bat this week.  (I find that God has not waited to provide practice opportunities for my “love attribute of the week”.  First day of “Do not envy” and it’s go time.  Oh let the fun begin!)

Envy/Jealousy versus  Contentment Moment #1-with my brother-

As I walked around my brother’s new property I was in awe.  Of our creator God.  The pink sky I felt I could reach out and touch.  The snow covered mountain on my right.  The quiet wrestling of trees all around me.  Majesty.  Apparent everywhere my eyes rested.  Majesty.  Of a God with such creativity and wonder.  Majesty.  Of a place to live.  It was here where my spirit filled thoughts went to garbage town.  It started with one simple question.  “Why not me?”  I wanted this.  I wanted something I didn’t have.   And then the compare.  “Why does he get “majesty living” and I get “too close for comfort, in town living?”

But right about at this point I stopped the “envy train”.  And I blowed the whistle on a discontented attitude.  “Love does not envy” was the train’s new direction.  “Rejoice with those who rejoice” (Romans 12:15) kept the mental train on the right track. I thought about all the things about where I live that I have to be thankful for and the train was running full steam ahead.  I began to get a burst of excitement when I pictured my brother’s family getting this joy filled gift from God.  A place of peace and beauty in the upcoming new season.  A place to provide hospitality for others.  A place of rest after many busy years.  A place to enjoy God and enjoy others.  (Now there was no way the mental train was turning back.)

Thank you God for my home.  Thank you God for all your good gifts that come from above.  Thank you God for providing this good gift to my brother.  

Envy/Jealousy versus  Contentment Moment #2-with my husband-

I was on a run and praying through what area’s of jealousy/envy I am unaware of in my life.  The scripture reading for the day on my Bible App for my phone was Isaiah 56.  A portion of it talks about the wicked being those who love sleep.  (Bummer.  Guess I am in the wicked camp on this one.)  Just that morning I looked over at my husband who was resting so peacefully.  And I, in turn, threw off my covers with such frustration that I hit myself in the face.  It began with a simple question, again, (you would think I would catch the trend here), “Why not me?”  I once again wanted something I didn’t have.  The grass is greener on the other side…of the bed.  Followed up by the comparison trap again, “Why does he get to sleep while I have to get up early to work out, write, and/or have time with God?”  Unfortunately I stayed in this discontented, distasteful state until I read the above Isaiah passage.  God’s Word is so timely and applicable to our current life situations.  It allowed me, once again, to take a good look at myself in the mirror.  And in this case, see clearly I had an envy issue.  Oh how lovely to see our flaws laid out before us.  But oh how gracious of a God to accept, forgive, and give us His Holy Spirit to help us overcome.

Envy/Jealousy versus  Contentment Moment #2-with my girls-

My youngest daughter had a timely question, “Mom, what does jealousy mean?”  (Oh how she didn’t know she had hit on the hot topic/love attribute word of the week!  I was pumped to share!  But I had to take it down a notch.  Or maybe two.  I put my researched data on hold for a moment and entered into her world.)  “Well, I am so glad you asked, honey.  And why do you ask?”  My daughter promptly replied, “My friend said she was jealous I got to go in a hot tub at my Nana’s house because she wanted to go in one.”  What a God ordained conversation we got to have about being content with what we have.  That Jesus wants us to do our best not to compare ourselves, our toys, activities, opportunities,  and gifts to what others have.

Fortunately, the Lord gave my girls opportunities to practice this jealousy concept after our trip to the dollar store.  (Can I just say I have a love/hate relationship with this place?  At the time I feel I am getting myself or my girls so much for so not much money.  Then my elation dwindles on the car ride home as the stuffing from the snake is coming out of the rip and the hula hoop breaks in half after one day of good fun.  Now I am forced to sow back together a $1 snake and tape or buy a new hula hoop that actually works.  Obviously this recent wound has not healed yet.)  Since my oldest daughter was at school when I took my youngest daughter, we just bought her the same things only different colors.  Mistake of the century.  Apparently.  My oldest daughter cried for more time than you would imagine as she envied, “I wanted the mermaid with the blond hair, not red hair!  And I wanted a different colored cup!”

We look to Jesus to not fall into the more, more, “Green eyed monster” ways.  Into the “I want what they have” thoughts on repeat.  The envy.  The jealousy.  Is.  All.  Around.  Us.  Greed and the lust for more is rampant (Luke 12:15).  The contented, thankful, enough mindset is not valued and practiced.  May we be the light in our world to usher ourselves and others into a contented.  Restful.  Grateful spirit.   For the blessings God has given us abound.

“Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances.”  Philippians 4:11

“Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, “I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU,” Hebrews 13:5

 

 

 

Jillian

Jillian

© 2012 Standing on Peace

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