Jun 032013
 

I KNEW I WOULD HAVE SOME SERIOUS TIME TO KILL ON MY 9 HOUR FLIGHT ONE WAY (WITHOUT KIDS) A COUPLE WEEKS AGO.  I prayed the night before the flight, as well as the morning of, that the Lord would give me eyes to see and ears to hear if someone on the plane needed a touch from Him.

I was ready for the unbelieving teenager who didn’t have an earthly father and longed to experience unconditional love.  I was ready for the gray haired woman who held on to numerous wounds from “so called Christians”.  I was ready.  I was prayed up and expectant for who and what God would bring on my travel day.

I shouldn’t be surprised when God has a different plan for me.  I had no one sitting next me on the way there and the way back.  Lord, but I thought you would have me ministering to someone?  What now?  It was as if He gently whispered,

Take this time to be with Me.

A typical day with my toddler girls (does this actually exist?) allows me to have 30 minutes or so in the Word and in prayer (during their nap/quiet time).  So this extended time on the plane was an unexpected blessing.

I read in the Word.  I read Richard Foster’s, “Celebration of Discipline” in full (If you don’t have a book for the summer and haven’t read this book, it will challenge and inspire you!)

The Lord impressed upon my heart a word and scriptures to include in an upcoming talk I felt nervous and inadequate to do.  I furiously wrote down pages of notes.

I prayed about His direction for this blog.  I prayed for my kids, my husband, you, and what activities He would have me be in this upcoming year.

Time alone with my Father was something I needed, but didn’t know it.  Time alone with Him was productive, powerful and peace giving.

A Father speaks to you, His daughter:

I desire your time.  Time to speak to you through the Bible.  Time to take away the worries on your heart and mind. Time to talk real. Providing real comfort in your sadness.  Real patience in your anger.  Real forgiveness from your sin.  Real hope in your now.  Real freedom from past hurts.  Real clarity and wisdom in your questions. And then, real filling of your deep soul.

“Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are His.  He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning.  He reveals deep and hidden things.  I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers;  You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you.” Daniel 2:20-21b,22a,23a

What sacrifice could be made in order to have daily alone time with Jesus?  What worries are heavy on your mind and heart and need to be lifted?

Jillian

Jillian

© 2012 Standing on Peace

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Apr 222013
 

I TWEAKED MY LOWER BACK. DROVE 3 HOURS WITH THE GIRLS IN THE CAR. FORGOT MULTIPLE ITEMS FOR THE TRIP.  CHILDCARE PLANS CHANGED.  I BROKE DOWN ON THE HIGHWAY DUE TO A FAULTY BRAND NEW TIRE.  I WAS LATE.  I WAS DONE BEFORE THE WEEKEND OF MINISTRY EVEN BEGAN.

By God’s grace I arrived at the women’s retreat in one piece.  But, I did not come in full strength.  I felt unprepared and mentally exhausted.  Not to mention, extremely angry and frustrated with my circumstances. I was ready to give up.

The verse,  Not by might, not by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord.  (Zec. 4:6),  filled my mind as I walked through the cabin doors.

I asked the women on Friday night, “What obstacles stood in the way of you being able to come to retreat?”  Every woman I spoke with told me of at least one major difficulty she had encountered on her way to or as she signed up for the retreat.

Through the Lord’s strength, all of us sister’s overcame the enemies obstacles.  Through His Spirit, women were drawn to Jesus.  I give Him FULL credit and glory for our sweet time of salvation, healing, growth, and renewal.

God’s presence changes me.  And being with my sisters changes me.  Everytime.  Over the weekend, I had my: perspective altered.  Burdens and worries lifted.  Joy and hope restored.  Mind renewed.  Purpose confirmed.  I had the opportunity to pray, listen, worship, cry, and laugh with new and old friends.

But I didn’t take care of one key component: myself .  In my excitement to serve and fear to miss opportunities to show Christ’s love, I burned out.  I broke down in tears before leading worship Saturday night due to extreme exhaustion.

James Bryan Smith in, “The Good and Beautiful Community” teaches, “We need to have balance when it comes to the issue of serving others and taking care of ourselves.  I have many Christian friends who are so focused on serving others that they neglect their own needs, and sometimes the needs of their families.  We need to be aware of the condition of our own souls and bodies, and to take care of that first, without feeling any guilt about it.”

And so I learned something about myself. It is in everyone’s best interest if I take time out to replenish, to fill my cup.  And I can do this without stress or guilt because I am not the Savior, Jesus is.  And I take my orders of who, when, and where to show His love. 

Even Jesus took time away from His mission to make sure His needs were taken care of.

Jillian’s 5 ingredient recipe for her own personal sanity and wholeness:

       Ingredient                               Amount

  1. Sleep                                   Atleast one 4 hour block of sleep each night. (With a newborn)
  2. Prayer and the Word      Continual prayer and a daily alone time in the Word.
  3. Time with family             Weekly quality time with my husband, close friends, and girls.
  4. Exercise                              Go for a run a couple times a week.  I have more energy, and less stress.
  5. Use of spiritual gifts        Daily, weekly, monthly obedience to the Spirit’s voice in serving others.

After He (Jesus) had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray.  Mt 14:23

What is your 5 ingredient recipe for sanity and wholeness? 

What specifically will you do this week in order to be at balance with God, yourself and others?

 

Jillian

Jillian

© 2012 Standing on Peace

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