In the lives all around us the self-driven, self-seeking, self-esteem wishing priorities are evident. And somehow we must find a way to step of the “self train” and enter into something better, bigger and best. Something I am finding to be even more challenging than normal in my current state. “Oh my Jesus, please show me how to lean into this ‘Love is not self seeking’ challenge’.”
Seek. First. His. Kingdom. And ALL the rest (the future worries, present pain, past hurts, current frustrations, current unknowns) will. be. taken. care. of.
Self-seeking versus Kingdom seeking moment-#1-My mother-Based on my current state, I keep checking the month to make sure it’s not April and that this “self seeking” love characteristic was simply God’s way of playing an April fools joke on my sorry self. Turns out, “no”. No joke. Just real world lessons for me. Jesus style. So-this word “self”or “it’s all about me” should pretty much be plastered to my forehead so those unknowing souls can quickly get caught up to speed about my current bedrested, all day sickness, pregnant self. Talk about feeling self-ish, self-reliant, self-undone. This is more than humbling. I find it much more comfortable to be the giver rather than the receiver. Taker of the meal to the needy family, rather than being the needy family. One extending a prayer of healing for a sick friend rather than hearing another’s prayer for me.
But as I sit in the “receiving” state, my mom, gets the “love is selfless” award of the year (and truly should receive this award for each year of my life). Let me give you some examples: she forgets to get dressed until halfway through the day because she is tending to my cold wash rag, eating every hour and a half, massaging, grocery shopping, laundry, dishes, and two girls’ needs. When we found out I was pregnant and that it fell over my husband’s work planned 3 week trip abroad with his college students, she put her entire life on hold. For me. She has lived in my house and taken care of my oh so many needs, and let go of hers. My mom is currently clothed as a real life Saint at the moment. Truly. The selfless love of Jesus. Pours out of her. Onto a needy soul like me. And I am forever grateful.
Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Phillipians 2:4
Who do you need to thank today for their selfless acts of giving to you?
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