Amidst all the waiting and change our family has been experiencing recently, I have been completely intoxicated with Leeana Tankersley’s book Found Art. Her writing has been the perfect companion during such a tumultuous time.
Leeana’s book begins by quoting a handful of verses from Ecclesiastes and maintains an undercurrent of resting upon these very verses throughout her story. I have been meditating on these verses myself, especially when I’m tempted to think things are out of control or that they’ll never end.
“There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens;
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build up,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embracing and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
What do workers gain from their toil? I have see the burden God has laid on the human race.
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
He has also set eternity in the human heart;
yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.” Ecc. 3:1-11
These verses remind me that the waiting and change I face today is a part of life. There are many different seasons in life. Many of them include a period of waiting. To change, to heal, to grow, to move on, to rest.
As I explained in my post last week, I’ve come to realize these waiting stretches can tend to bring out the worst in me. The anxious me. The insecure me. The angry or bitter me.
One thing I cannot escape through the waiting is the not-so-subtle reminder that I am not in control. I don’t always get to call the shots or make up the timeline. But God IS in control. He holds my times in His hands and it is not a mystery to Him. I find peace in this, when I let it sink into my heart.
Along with recognizing and resting in the fact I am not in control, I’ve also come to realize I can choose to not let these times be wasted. Will I allow myself to be moldable, teachable, changable during these stretching times? The easier thing would be to give into the pull to become numb, closed off, or stuck. But taking the harder, intentional path means being willing to take part in the story God is orchestrating in my life.
“He is making everything beautiful in its time. While we wait, we must breathe and heal and grieve and become. We don’t see the beauty immediately, but as we look back, we find the art in and through it all.” – Leeana Tankersley, Found Art.
I love these words. God is in the swirling emotions that accompany waiting. He is longing for us to open our hearts to Him. To see the beauty in what He is doing in us.
Where does waiting find you today? Are you open to seeing the beauty God is creating in you?
© 2012 Standing on Peace